Parents left for summer holidays, the house is empty.
On the one hand I will probably find space for my existence or I will not be urged by feelings of invasion that sometimes can come from noises, attitudes and cohabitation itself, on the other is a little sad the moment of transition.
There is a car and then a ship that goes towards the summers that have characterized all my growth: sea, air of Sardinia, nature, change of environment and sometimes less closed in a room with some exit to the restaurant or on trip or in gommone or still swimming in the sea.
There was the place and the ticket also for me but for the second year below I did not leave.
They are the invasions that make us feel bad and, at the moment of greeting, I feel to express on the other side an almost nice and respectful sorrow that first I felt expressed him under the form of attack and threat.
Even a few minutes before the departure, on the last day of cohabitation for the summer, I felt various complaints that I immediately felt as very destructive for those who pronounce them but also for those around. I do not want to judge but listen and express and observe the whole context.
I'll be making the right choice. Do I really have a good assessment?
If for a moment I imagine immersing myself in the journey I begin to calculate that outside the "my room fridge" there is a warm and sultry air that more than caressing makes me feel suffocated and uncomfortable. Apparently, in the next few days it will become even more aggressive.
There is the stress that causes me to travel in the car and ship where to sleep in the bed "at castle" above does not even leave the space to pull up with the basin in the bed. Where the room looks like a box closed in a structure that hopes never sinks.
The plane also puts me a bit of fear. I'm not a speed lover, except for the Internet I haven't even experienced yet. Closed places and deprivation of certain freedoms make me feel highly uncomfortable.
Remaining or leaving, however, involves choices characterized by advantages and disadvantages.
Their journey to Sardinia will last several hours between car and ship and begin in the late afternoon of today and then end tomorrow morning.
I expect a warm arrival in the morning in Sardinia and then the car to download however... I must admit that this year seemed to be much less stuff and this is really positive because the past years the load was always exaggerated and really too stressful.
The house looks a little cleaner than ever. The kitchen seems more in order than usual.
I feel in my head the voices and the presence of mine these days that somehow bothered me but also kept company. It’s really a little strange life; if there are any troubles, if there are no feeling the void. Am I there? Yes, there are but as a human love and what is missing is precisely that spark of humanity and uniqueness that brings every human being. When we talk about parents often the bond is unique even if conflictual.
Now it really started summer and inside me I feel that I can’t wait to go.
